there are a lot of things i'm afraid of and the list for those things changes all the time. what i'm most afraid of right now is that i'm unaware. unaware of my emotions. unaware of what's going on in the region of the heart. i feel like i should be feeling a lot of things. i feel like i should be going through a lot of things. but i've been fine and that scares me a little bit. i feel like i'm not aware of my emotions enough to be a writer.