What I've been after, what I'm still after, is beauty. And maybe that is why I always thought I was in love, why I gave myself over to so many lovers. It sounds like justification to some extent, but maybe it's true, maybe it really is the reason why I was never able to commit, settle down to just one idea, because there is so much beauty in this world. What I'm trying to tell you darling, is that I tried to fly without being aware that my wings were waxen the entire time. And this is how much I love you: before you jumped off the cliff, I checked your wings twice.