class of 2008

i just got my cap and gown. for some reason, maybe it was because of last year, i didn't think it would actually happen. i thought that i would go up to the counter, they would swipe my card, put in my information in the computer, and they would look up at me slowly, eyes still on the computer screen, and say something along the lines of: sorry, we can't let you graduate yet. i was kind of hoping something like that would happen. but that would also have been devastating. i was also expecting the guy to swipe my card and then say, i'm sorry, you're not in the system. and then it would've been like i didn't really exist, like i wasn't actually about to graduate, or take a final, or buy my cap and gown. sometimes i really don't think i exist in college. i feel strange, like a fish out of water. but what actually happened was the guy took my broken ID card and chuckled, "i guess that's a sign it's time for you to graduate!" ha ha ha. so he enters in my number and gives me a ticket. asks me what height i am and gives me a gown. and a cap. and a tassel. and that's it. granted, i still have a class left to take. but that's it. the end of college. i don't really know how else it should be. but now i'm about to take one of my last finals of college. and i can't believe it's all really happening. i feel like curling up into a ball in the corner of a room and disappearing.